Wow. It’s been ten months since we’ve posted. I’m not here to get into all the details of those ten months. I just want to go with what’s on my mind right now. I don’t know how consistent these posts will ever be. But I don’t want to write unless something is pressing on my heart to share or just get out. Even if nobody reads it, I need to express it. I’ve started writing in a journal every morning but today I want to write in this blog for whatever reason. Even if one person reads it or even if it is only a therapeutic exercise for myself, it feels necessary.
Since I’ve been focusing more on self-care and feeding my creative “inner child” or whatever you want to call it, I’ve been more aware of “energy” or I guess just more tuned into feelings. All that mushy shit. I love it. I don’t know exactly what it is but last night it sort of hit me. I was listening to artist after artist perform. Not even fully paying attention to every single song, as it was at the bar. But something about each performance gave me some kind of feeling. This sounds stupid. Maybe it is, but oh well.
I just had the overwhelming sense that everyone was being vulnerable and expressing things they don’t typically express when just talking with someone. It hit me how interesting it is that we can sing an extremely vulnerable sad and real song in front of a crowd but we wouldn’t actually speak about those things so freely. It’s weird how music makes us more comfortable with self-expression. Even when I feel a little shaky singing like I did last night, I was still able to sing through the song that I wanted to sing. But I definitely didn’t want to talk about it. And that’s just fine.
I felt like I could relate to every single person on some level because it really takes a lot to get up there and open yourself up. I think most artists are working through pain, whether that pain is big or small it doesn’t matter. It’s just really fucking cool that we can express ourselves so freely that way. I don’t know where I’m going with this. I am just happy that we have an outlet and I hope that everyone has at least one other person to support them when it comes to self-expression. I think everybody needs that. I certainly do. I appreciate anyone who has ever said something kind about my art. Thank you.